i wonder...
do we need to heal as individuals before the Ayllu does or does the collective need to heal so we can individually?? ...will windwalker call us back to who we really are?
she is already calling.....are we willing to listen to her?
some will listen but many refuse to hear her most urgent callings.....how ...can we hear enough for all of us? ....if all are not hearing windwalker, what are others listening to that i am refusing to hear also?
am i just too consumed with my own navel yet again? i talk ...i coax....i step forward and back....to whom and from whom? ...we are all sisters and brothers and yet we drop our heads and fail to recognise others on the path we are all travelling, albeit at differentt times and at different paces? ...do i continue to pray for ayni?....you bet...can i dream it?....you bet...am i willing to take action?....you bet...what action do i need to take????.....will we allow the great gifts of this time like windwalker to show us the way....i hope so....i truly hope so....let's keep it in our vision and our dreaming front and center...that we can do...you and i and one more and one more and one more.............
i begged an ayllu friend of mine to go to fire with me recently....she pulled out yet again at the last minute....what is that about?.....i thought we were travelling this path together....only for a little while and although there is no rancor between us....we are simply drifting apart....i am sad yet i am powerless and i chose not to hang on so tightly that we can not have those wonderful moments of communion in munay and ayni again.....whenever our paths cross....as they sometimes do momentarily...
i so wish we could all be on the same page....but then what page would that be? ...when i see the cracks i too am fearful that it will all just fall apart....like everyone else...i so long for the oneness of us all.....that we experience through the great sound of the sacred drum....windwalker....will we get to hear her sing? will we sing with her?
i hope so....meet you at the drum sometime...
love and light......Val T...
